seeing you again
who knew after all this time
you still have my heart



So wow, New Kids on the Block. Just WOW.

I tell ya, I went into the day in a weird kind of daze, as if my excitement was pushed down for some reason. And then it all came out when the concert started. I took so much video it's not even funny! I mostly wanted to catch bits of all the songs and then maybe a whole song here and there. Well, I did more than that. Not sure what I'm going to do with all of it, but much of it will likely go on YouTube. lol!

( NKOTB - how I love thee... )

me and my strawberry margarita

It probably wasn't a good idea to start my day with a strawberry margarita and corn dog, eh? ( and more from the county fair! )

don't plead with me now
you've thrown away your last chance
spoiled what was once good

Even though it's the other side of midnight, today is still yesterday for me. This means that today is actually tomorrow in my perspective. If any of that makes sense to you, kudos! I'm a bit sleepy, so as I re-read it, it doesn't make sense to me at all.

I'm listening to the STAR TREK soundtrack. Oh dear.

shattering our dreams
destiny led us astray
broken and abused

It's kinda nice to wake up when you're already supposed to be at work. lol! Ahhh, vacation time! I don't mind that it's lazy days for me this week. Tis rather wonderful. ;)

you're my lonely dream
haunting my nights
unforgiving and cruel
yet still I want you
believing I see regret
flickering in your listless eyes
you're my lonely dream
accusations peppering your silence
offering no reprieve
yet still I need you
believing I see compassion
hollow in your gestures

Our 4th of July was lovely! ( family stuff )

the sun shines bright
high in the blue sky
warming the summer days
vibrant and sweet
the heat fills the air
cut by fleeting breezes
slipping in the shadows
laughing in the shade

I'm still up! I can see that my sleep patterns will be odd during my vacation. Oh well, it'll be fun! ;)

My first day of vacation was mostly lazy. Woke up a little early (before 10am) considering my bedtime (4am or thereabouts), but I ended up taking a nap during the day, so that was nice. We went out to get some stuff and then we were back home.

the stars shine bright
so far away
the moon waxing steady
growing every night
summer eves warm
comfort on the skin
drawing forth lazy dreams
curving smiles so slow
beneath the dark sky
filled with stars so bright



The dogs are good at napping. LOL!

Not sure why I'm still awake but here I am. I'm thinking of converting episodes of Coupling to iPhone format. Just because.

maybe he'll walk away
leave her to the heartbreak
to the unfallen tears
maybe she'll walk away
leave him to the emptiness
to the lies he finds comfort
maybe time will stop
leave them to confusion
to the confrontation they need
then maybe they can walk away
leave behind the pain
embrace the peace within reach

so welcome darkness
shadow the cracks in this heart
dull the pain inside

So I'm off until the 13th. I love it! I'm not doing anything duly exciting. Well, there is the NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK CONCERT!!! But I have to wait a week for that. Until then I plan on cleaning the house and enjoying the time off. I'll probably play lots of Bejeweled Blitz at Facebook. lol!

I never spared this heart
every height of passion
every depth of despair
I never spared this heart
every soaring sweetness
every shattering fall
I offered no protection
against impossible dreams
against inevitable tears
I offered no comfort
in the midst of desolation
in the midst of confusion
I never spared this heart

How sad, Loudtwitter is probably dead and gone. :( Ah well. I'm going to turn on Twitter Tools at my MJazz and hope that works to digest my tweets.

One more day of work! YAH! :D

you just can't hide
your desperation seeps
bubbles over
no matter what you do
you just can't hide
your frustration bleeds
spills over
revealing every wound
you just can't hide

Why is it only Tuesday? I swear, it feels like a Thursday. I know, wishful thinking!

We went to Lumpy's today and I must say it's not as tasty as Digger's. Now I know.


it looked good and it was, but just not as good as my digger's burger...

tomorrow I'll stand
head held high and ever proud
face these demons down

Omigosh, it's been HOT these past few days. If I'm to believe the forecast, it should be a bit cooler today except what's really the difference between 107 degrees and 99 degrees?

We watched Virtuality yesterday. Tis a shame that it's not going to be an actual tv show because I was really digging it. Stupid network bastards.

I've gone through my contact list in my Gmail account and I've cleaned it up. I now sync my Gmail contacts with my iPhone and works like a dream! Oh, and it's free, so definitely no complaints. Now the only reason to connect my iPhone to my computer is to update my playlists and apps. Nice! Don't you just love technology? ;)

lets hide in the shade
wait as the heat passes through
scorching summer days

I stayed inside all day yesterday. I am ever so thankful for the wonderful invention of air conditioning. Whew!

We caught up on Harper's Island! Now we have to wait TWO WEEKS for the finale. Geez!

Oh, so Google Voice ROCKS! I have a neat-oh phone number too. Not sure what I'm going to do with it. lol! BUT, I can once again text my friend in Canada because when I receive a text from her now, it shows a number from the US. Yah!

Time for bed. Yes, I'm up at 3am.

oh the simple things
seem simple enough
innocent enough
intentions simply buried
life simply unhurried
so let's not worry
let the others scurry
we'll just reach out and fly
our dreams shooting high
delight in the simple things
the sweet and simple things

It's freakin' hot outside. HOT. Triple freakin' digits. I'm staying inside and hoping it cools down after sunset enough to turn off the a/c. I don't have much hope for that.

What is good? A half day of work, a nap after lunch, air conditioning running, and time to write. These are all good things and I bask in the simplicity of it all.

I like what Lisa Marie Presley wrote in regards to Michael Jackson. I almost cried.

it's easier to forget
dry the tears
take back that breath
than to sink so far down
losing that grip
floundering in misery
it's easier to forget
take that step
don't look back again
than to stand still
frozen in place
dying little by little
it's easier to forget
reach out to me
take that turn
than to spin out of control
cursing every mistake
forgetting all your hope

Such a freakish kind of day. You know, the kind of day where you're relatively untouched and yet feel so numb inside.

Someone dies everyday but it just seems a little cruel to lose an icon like Farrah Fawcett this morning then music legend Michael Jackson this afternoon. One almost a relief as she was finally released from her suffering and the other a shock. And it's all just sad.

what do you leave behind
rising to heights so great
then falling down to the depths
almost obliterating your legacy
were you the prey
were you the predator
now you're gone
questions left unanswered
except for this
what do you leave behind

No weird dreams last night. Or maybe I just don't remember them. lol!

I'm writing story scenes between unnamed characters, which just seems so weird to me. Usually I think long and hard about the names I bestow upon my characters but right now I guess I just want to write the scenes. I don't even know how long the story is because I think I'm writing the end right now. lol! Maybe it's just a novella type story. I don't know. But it's a strange process for me at the moment. I usually write in a linear fashion.

this craving consumes me
tripping me from destiny
lighting a different path
tinged with unseen possibilities

this craving consumes me
trapping me in this web
so tangled without escape
but I just want to stay

this craving consumes me
breaking me from reality
harsh and unforgiving
but irresistible to the touch

First off, I dreamt about Chris Conrad. This after watching Push last night (with Chris Evans) and learning something new about Chris Pine (he was in Bottle Shock, something I've actually watched). So why dream about Chris Conrad? Strange.

Second, I dreamt that I was back at SRJ sharing a desk with a former co-worker. I was still the dispos chick, which meant I worked a 1pm to 9:30pm shift but she was a day shifter.

Third, I was holding someone's baby in a mall while trying to keep an eye out on guys with guns tailing me. Or the baby's parent. I don't know.

See, weird!

swiftly falling down
devoured by such longing
crushed by the impact

I can't believe it's already Monday. What the heck?!

she pretends it's nothing
the thrill coursing her veins
delicious torture
temptation just within reach
she pretends it's nothing
the desire whispering on her skin
chilling to shivers
yet simmering hot inside
she pretends it's nothing
the heaven of anticipation
lulling her sweet dreams
casting aside her doubts
yet she pretends it's nothing

I stayed up and watched New Zealand vs. France. New Zealand won! :) It's weird watching and not seeing Daniel Carter in the #10 jersey. Alas! Hopefully he comes back in time for the Tri Nations. :)

( yesterday and today )